I appeal for more faith. I am still a whiner. And a selfish bitch.. Kill me now.

September 26, 2008

Enough said. I am starting to become a better lea. Selfless and understanding. I don’t want to pressure anyone lest make them miserable by being so unreasonable. I learned my lessons. I am humbled by the man I want to spend ever after. My spiritual affinity with God increased, there’s no one I can turn to but Him. I am blessed in so many ways than others, I must be thankful and stop being the old whiner Lea that I am. I learned to appreciate and see the beauty of others. Thank you. In time, I can start all over again and be the best that I can be. Have a little faith on me.

December 11, 2008

By setting a person a free, you run a risk of them not returning. But always remember that you found them beautiful precisely because they were free. People are like sunlight. You can feel their warmth, and their glow, but you can’t hold them in your hand and keep them with you forever. People choose to stay. But a choice is made more meaningful when it is made despite so many other options.

I was back reading my blog entries when I chanced upon this. Yay, the things I write. Ahaha. So 2009. Boo me!

There is something superwoman about me. When I am at my best, nothing can stop me. But not when I am hurting. Not when something within me isn’t straight within itself. This year, I have to get to move on. All kinds of help from different set of people are highly appreciated. But I know that I have to be willing to put aside a pain that has long informed my choices - not always in a positive way. I have to face my own darkness and replace it with light. The courage to do that may take a while to find but it is something I will only benefit from finding.